Anything is possible if one wants it with unbending
intent and you don't let your thoughts interfere.
Power comes only after we accept our fate
without recriminations.
When one has nothing to lose, one becomes courageous. We are timid
only when there is something we can still cling to.
A warrior doesn't seek anything for his
solace, nor can he possibly leave anything to chance. A warrior actually
affects the outcome of events by the force of his awareness and his
unbending intent .
You must lose your human form. You don't yet know about the
human mold and the human form. The human form is a force and the human
mold is ... well ... a mold.
Everything has a
particular mold. Plants have molds, animals have molds, worms have molds.
Sorcerers have the avenue of their dreaming to lead them to
the mold. The mold of men is definitely an entity, an entity which can be
seen by some of us at certain times when we are imbued with power, and by
all of us for sure at the moment of our death. The mold is the source, the
origin of man, since, without the mold to group together the force of
life, there is no way for that force to assemble itself into the shape of
man.
The human form is a sticky force that makes
us the people we are. The human form has no form. It's anything, but in
spite of not having form, it possesses us during our lives and doesn't
leave us until we die.
A warrior must drop the
human form in order to change, to really change. Otherwise there is only
talk about change. One cannot change one iota as long as one holds on to
the human form. A warrior knows that he cannot change, and yet he makes it
his business to try to change, even though he knows that he won't be able
to. That's the only advantage a warrior has over the average man. The
warrior is never disappointed when he fails to change.
The only thing that makes you think you are yourself is the form.
Once it leaves, you are nothing. A warrior without form begins to see an
eye. The formless warrior uses that eye to start dreaming .
If you don't have a form, you don't have to go to sleep to do
dreaming . The eye in front of you pulls you every time you
want to go.
Everything has to be sifted through
our human form. When we have no form, then nothing has form and yet
everything is present.
The art of the dreamer is to hold the image of his
dream . Our art as ordinary people is that we know how to
hold the image of what we are looking at. We just do it; that is, our
bodies do it. In dreaming we have to do the same thing,
except that in dreaming we have to learn how to do it. We
have to struggle not to look but merely to glance and yet hold the
image. Everything we say
is a reflection of the world of people. You talk and act the way you do
because you're clinging to the human form.
Everything in a warrior's world depends on personal power and personal
power depends on impeccability. Part of being impeccable for a warrior is
never to hinder others with his thoughts.
You
indulge in not trying to change. That's as wrong as feeling disappointed
with our failures. Warriors, must be impeccable in their effort to change,
in order to scare the human form and shake it away. After years of
impeccability a moment will come when the form cannot stand it any longer
and it leaves.
The
art of a sorcerer is to be inconspicuous even in the midst of people.
Concentrate totally on trying not to be obvious. To learn to become
unnoticeable in the middle of all this is to know the art of
stalking .
Be calm and self-controlled and give others your undivided
attention.
The whole issue
of sorcery is perception. A warrior must notice everything, that's
his trick, and there lies his advantage.
It
is an honor and a pleasure to be a warrior, and it is the warrior's
fortune to do what he has to do.
What is the art of stalking ? A hunter just hunts, a
stalker stalks anything, including himself. An impeccable
stalker can turn anything into prey. We can even stalk our
own weaknesses. You do it in the same way you stalk prey. You figure out
your routines until you know all the doing of your weaknesses
and then you come upon them and pick them up like rabbits inside a
cage.
Any habit is, in essence, a
doing , and a doing needs all its parts in order
to function. If some parts are missing, a doing is
disassembled.
A
warrior eats quietly, and slowly, and very little at a time.
The only deterrent to our
despair is the awareness of our death, the key to the sorcerer's scheme of
things. The awareness of our death is the only thing that can give us the
strength to withstand the duress and pain of our lives and our fears of
the unknown. Volition alone is the deciding factor; in other words, one
has to make up one's mind to bring that awareness to bear witness to one's
acts.
We are human creatures. Who knows what's
waiting for us or what kind of power we may have.
It doesn't matter what anybody says or does.
You must be an impeccable man yourself. The fight is right here in this
chest. It takes all the time and all the energy we have to conquer the
idiocy in us. And that's what matters. The rest is of no importance. To be
an impeccable warrior will give you vigor and youth and power.
I have taught you to be dispassionate. The world of people
goes up and down and people go up and down with their world; as sorcerers
we have no business following them in their ups and downs. The art of
sorcerers is to be outside everything and be unnoticeable. And more than
anything else, the art of sorcerers is never to waste their
power.
We hold the
images of the world with our attention. Let your attention go from the
images of the world. If you don't focus your attention on the world, the
world collapses. Instead of fighting to focus, let go of the images by
gazing fixedly at distant hills, or by gazing at water, like a river, or
by gazing at the clouds.
If you gaze with your
eyes open, you get dizzy and the eyes get tired, but if you half-close
them and blink a lot and move them from mountain to mountain, or from
cloud to cloud, you can look for hours.
As I've
told you, the tonal and the nagual are two
different worlds. In one you talk, in the other you act. At first all of
us secretly do not want the world of the nagual . We are
afraid and have second thoughts. Our unbending intent and our
impeccability gets us thru that.
Everyone can see , and yet we choose not to
remember what we see .
With our attention we can hold the images of a
dream in the same way we hold the images of the world. The art of the
dreamer is the art of attention.
Your reason is the demon that keeps
you chained. You have to vanquish it if you want to achieve the
realization of my teachings. The issue, therefore, has been how to
vanquish your reason . By reason I don't mean
the capacity for comprehending, inferring or thinking, in an orderly,
rational way. To me reason means attention.
The core of our being is the act of
perceiving, and the magic of our being is the act of awareness. Perception
and awareness can be a single, functional, inextricable unit with two
domains. The first one is the attention of the tonal ; that
is to say, the capacity of average people to perceive and place their
awareness on the ordinary world of everyday life: our first ring of
power; our awesome but taken-for-granted ability to impart order to
our perception of our daily world. The second
domain is the attention of the nagual ; the capacity to place
our awareness on the nonordinary world. It's our second ring of
power , or the altogether portentous ability all of us have, but
only sorcerers use, to impart order to the nonordinary world.
What I have struggled to vanquish, or rather suppress in
you, is not your reason as the capacity for rational thought,
but your attention of the tonal , or your awareness of the
world of common sense. The daily world exists because we know how to hold
its images; consequently, if one drops the attention needed to maintain
those images, the world collapses. Practice is
what counts. Once you get your attention on the images of your dream, your
attention is hooked for good. In the end you can hold the images of any
dream.
Our first ring of power is
engaged very early in our lives and we live under the impression that that
is all there is to us. Our second ring of power , the
attention of the nagual , remains hidden for the immense
majority of us, and only at the moment of our death is it revealed to us.
There is a pathway to reach it, however, which is available to every one
of us, but which only sorcerers take, and that pathway is through
dreaming . Dreaming is in essence the
transformation of ordinary dreams into affairs involving volition.
Dreamers , by engaging their attention of
the nagual and focusing it on the items and events of their
ordinary dreams, change those dreams into dreaming.
There are no procedures to arrive at the attention of the
nagual , only pointers. Finding your hands in your dreams is
the first pointer; then the exercise of paying attention is elongated to
finding objects, looking for specific features, such as buildings, streets
and so on. From there the jump is to dream about specific
places at specific times of the day. The final stage is drawing the
attention of the nagual to focus on the total self.
That final stage is usually ushered in by a dream that many
of us have had at one time or another, in which one is looking at oneself
sleeping in bed. By the time a sorcerer has had such a dream, his
attention has been developed to such a degree that instead of waking
himself up, as most of us would do in a similar situation, he turns on his
heels and engages himself in activity, as if he were acting in the world
of everyday life.
From that moment on there is a
breakage, a division of sorts in the otherwise unified personality. The
result of engaging the attention of the nagual and developing
it to the height and sophistication of our daily attention of the world is
the other self, an identical being as oneself, but made in
dreaming .
There are no definite
standard steps for reaching that double, as there are no definite steps
for us to reach our daily awareness. We simply do it by practicing. In the
act of engaging our attention of the nagual , we find the
steps. Practice dreaming without letting your fears make it
into an encumbering production.
There is a crack between the worlds and it is more than a
metaphor. It is rather the capacity to change levels of attention. Don't
try to reason it out. Act like a warrior and follow what I've told
you.
We choose only
once. We choose either to be warriors or to be ordinary men. A second
choice does not exist. Not on this earth.
The only freedom warriors have is to behave
impeccably. Not only is impeccability freedom but it is the only way to
scare away the human form.
The second attention,
or the attention of the nagual , is reached only after
warriors have swept the top of their tables, their islands of the
tonal , clean. Reaching the second attention makes the two
attentions into a single unit, and that unit is the totality of
oneself.
Diligence in an impeccable life is the
only way to lose the human form. Losing the human form is the essential
requirement for unifying the two attentions.
The
attention under the table is the key to everything sorcerers do. In order
to reach that attention I have taught you dreaming
.
Another way to learn how to do
dreaming is by learning gazing. If you gaze at a
pile of leaves for hours your thoughts get quiet. Without thoughts the
attention of the tonal wanes and suddenly your second
attention hooks onto the leaves and the leaves become something else. The
moment when the second attention hooks onto something is called
stopping the world .
The difficulty
in gazing is to learn to quiet down the thoughts. Once you can stop
the world you are a gazer. And the only way of stopping the
world is by trying. Combine gazing at dry leaves and looking for
our hands in dreaming . Once you have trapped your second
attention with dry leaves, you do gazing and dreaming to
enlarge it. And that's all there is to gazing. All we need to do in order
to trap our second attention is to try and try.
Once dreamers know how to stop the world by
gazing at leaves, they can gaze at other things; and finally when the
dreamers lose their form altogether, they can gaze at
anything.
First after leaves, gaze at small
plants. Small plants are very dangerous. Their power is concentrated; they
have a very intense light and they feel when dreamers are
gazing at them; they immediately move their light and shoot it at the
gazer. Dreamers have to choose one kind of plant to gaze
at.
Next gaze at trees. Dreamers also
have a particular kind of tree to gaze at. Next gaze at moving, living
creatures. Small insects are by far the best subject. Their mobility makes
them innocuous to the gazer, the opposite of plants which draw their light
directly from the earth.
The next step is to gaze
at rocks. Rocks are very old and powerful and have a specific light which
is rather greenish in contrast with the white light of plants and the
yellowish light of mobile, living beings. Rocks do not open up easily to
gazers, but it is worthwhile for gazers to persist because rocks have
special secrets concealed in their core, secrets that can aid sorcerers in
their dreaming .
A second series in
the order of gazing is to gaze at cyclic phenomena: rain and fog. Gazers
can focus their second attention on the rain itself and move with it, or
focus it on the background and use the rain as a magnifying glass of sorts
to reveal hidden features. Places of power or places to be avoided are
found by gazing through rain. Places of power are yellowish and places to
be avoided are intensely green.
The position of
the body is of great importance while one is gazing. One has to sit on the
ground on a soft mat of leaves, or on a cushion made out of natural
fibers. The back has to be propped against a tree, or a stump, or a flat
rock. The body has to be thoroughly relaxed. The eyes are never fixed on
the object, in order to avoid tiring them. The gaze consists in scanning
very slowly the object gazed at, going counterclockwise but without moving
the head. The idea is to let your perception play without analyzing
it.
The effect you are after in gazing is to learn
to stop the internal dialogue. To do that you can focus your view as
gazers do or, as I've already told you, flood your awareness while walking
by not focusing your sight on anything. That is, sort of feel with your
eyes everything in the 180-degree range in front of you, while you keep
your fixed and unfocused eyes just above the line of the
horizon.
The essential feature of sorcery is
shutting off the internal dialogue. Stopping the internal dialogue is an
operational way of describing the act of disengaging the attention of the
tonal .
Once we stop our internal
dialogue we also stop the world . That is an operational
description of the inconceivable process of focusing our second attention.
Part of us is always kept under lock and key because we are afraid of it.
And to our reason, that part of us is like an insane relative that we keep
locked in a dungeon. That part is our second attention, and when it
finally can focus on something the world stops. Since we, as average man,
know only the attention of the tonal , it is not too
farfetched to say that once that attention is canceled, the world indeed
has to stop. The focusing of our wild, untrained second attention is,
perforce, terrifying. The only way to keep that insane relative from
bursting in on us is by shielding ourselves with our endless internal
dialogue.
Dreamers can gaze in order to do dreaming and
then they can look for their dreams in their gazing. For example you can
gaze at the shadows of rocks and then, in your dreaming , you
might find out that those shadows have light. You can then, while gazing,
look for the light in the shadows until you find it. Gazing and
dreaming go together.
A warrior has no compassion for anyone. To have compassion
means that you wish the other person to be like you, to be in your shoes,
and you lend a hand just for that purpose. The hardest thing in the world
is for a warrior to let others be. The impeccability of a warrior is to
let them be and to support them in what they are. That means, of course,
that you trust them to be impeccable warriors themselves. If they are not
then it's your duty to be impeccable yourself and not say a word. Only a
sorcerer who sees and is formless can afford to help anyone.
Every effort to help on our part is an arbitrary act guided by our
own self-interest alone
The problem for you as a challenge is whether or not you will be capable
of developing your will , or the power of your second
attention to focus indefinitely on anything you want.
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