Chapter 27
CIRCUMSTANCES BEGIN SHIFTING DIRECTIONS
- FEBRUARY/MARCH 1972 -
As in Chapter 1 of this book, I've made a philosophical effort to discuss
the topic of CIRCUMSTANCES -- that we get sucked into them, and how they
change the directions of our lives.
I was not yet quite aware of this as of the beginning of 1972. But as
later events unexpectedly and soon changed the directions of my life I realized
that it was important to begin considering how circumstances drag one along
in their pull.
For example, one is aiming at a certain direction within the circumstances
already present. The direction end up activating new circumstances -- and
one ends up someplace altogether different from the original direction.
During February and March, 1972, it was widely understood that the experimental
work at the ASPR was going well, all things considered, and this news had
spread far and wide.
Even so, I could not see a future for me in doing more and more experiments.
There was hardly any money in it and I felt I needed to go full-time into
some other kinds of projects.
In any event, the various experiments were coming to closure at the ASPR,
and the experimenters were already busy constructing their first draft reports
concerning them.
I anticipated that the ASPR work would be concluded at some time in May,
and I determined not to do any more psi experimenting for a while. And
I needed some kind of life outside of parapsychology which for me was declining
in its luster.
I had met a rather wild literary agent, Mr. Sidney Porcelain, and showed
him some of my early literary outputs. He felt I had "promise,"
and we set about discussing a book he might be able to sell.
The Sexual Revolution had just begun, and the demands for sex-type literature
were on a drastic upward swing. Sex was one of my, and Zelda's, favorite
topics, and I felt I could write something original and daring along those
lines -- about extraordinary sexual experiencing.
Porcelain had taken on one of my early novels entitled PINK NEON. This
was a somewhat surrealistic adventure into the strange sex life in the 1960s
gutters of the lower East Side of Manhattan.
Surrealism had been one of my favorite forms regarding my paintings; but
the literary format I turned out bothered a lot of people whose minds think
in ordinary, mundane ways and can't think in surrealist terms. None the
less, most found the novel had intrinsic merit.
Porcelain submitted it to a number of publishers -- all of which thought
it down. The publishers all agreed, though, that it was not obscene, was
not pornography, but that it challenged too many social taboos. PINK NEON
was never published.
One important publisher had turned it down on the grounds that there was
too much sex in it. Another equally important cutting-edge publisher turned
it down because there was not enough sex in it.
But we were enthusiastic regarding future novels.
Meanwhile, my New Year's resolution never to interact with the Media had
become troublesome to just about everyone -- even to Janet Mitchell and
Dr. Karlis Osis at the ASPR, and certainly to my three powerful gossip and
espionage Centrals.
By now there were lots of requests from major and minor media for interviews,
and my friends were bringing pressure along these lines -- majorly by calling
me "stupid" for not opening up a little.
Finally, Ruth Hagy Brod convinced me. "You," she said, "have
a chance in a thousand to make a difference here. The world of psi needs
your voice. You speak very well, and you have the power to change the public
perception of psi."
"Well," I replied, "most media have editorial policies to
trash psi. There's no hope as long as those policies are on-going."
If I recall correctly, Al Brod simply said I was acting "like a chicken
shit." Al could usually come directly to the point -- and there was
probably some truth in his astute observation. We all broke out laughing.
"OK, OK, I'll do it just once and never again."
In the end, I surveyed the numerous requests for interviews. I finally
selected the then WABC EYE-WITNESS NEWS anchorman, Mr. Kevin Saunders.
I had watched the program for a long time, and he seemed to me to be sensible,
clever and straightforward.
My appointment calendar for 1972 records that the interview took place
on 25 February, and that I spent $25.00 for "coffee and scotch."
When he and his camera crew left, the scotch was all gone.
I don't remember Saunder's brief piece at all. And if the interview was
not in my calendar, and my archives did not have a letter of appreciation
to him dated March 4, I would have forgotten about it completely.
My memory triggered now, I do remember that Zelda had a few people in for
wine and snacks and we all watched the piece together. I was terrified
-- and got drunk (this first stress of TV exposure was unbearable).
As a result, I decided to give the BBC in England an interview at some
near time in the future -- on the grounds, back then, that American media
were dangerous to "psychics" and parapsychology.
I had also begun receiving numerous invitations to be a speaker at conferences.
In the latter part of February 1972, I met Mr. Robert D. Ericsson, then
Executive Director of Spiritual Frontiers Fellowship (SFF), which had been
founded in 1956, largely by the efforts of the renowned American medium,
Arthur Ford.
The goals of the SFF were to sponsor, explore and interpret the growing
interest in psychic phenomena and mystical experience within the church,
wherever these experiences relate to effective prayer, spiritual healing
and personal survival (after death).
I had been introduced to Arthur Ford, once at Buell's place and at a dinner
party at the Bennitts' place when Ford was in town doing mass mediumistic
displays at places like Town Hall and Carnegie Hall.
He was kept quite busy being lionized, but I had the opportunity to observe
him at a distance. He was affable, but seemed to have a little difficulty
putting up with being lionized.
Well, I concluded, THAT will never happen to me. And indeed I've done
my best to prevent that until today -- much to the disappoint of many --
and I guess, to the loss of potentially good and/or socially powerful friends.
Many have commented that I shoot myself in my own feet in this regard.
When Bob Ericsson tentatively asked if I'd be interested in giving lectures
at SFF Retreats, I said I would. For here I saw a developmental line regarding
not only psychic phenomena, but spiritual ART produced from within strong
spiritual artists.
SFF had numerous grassroots Chapters throughout the United States, and
so this was a circumstance set in motion. I couldn't go for top American
media and be shot down by editorial policies against ESP, psi -- and as
it later turned out, against UFOs, too.
So, if I had to have a public policy in order to help change the "face
of psi," I decided it would be among the spiritual grassroots -- from
which, after all, I came myself.
As it ultimately turned out, I was to participate in dozens and dozens
of conferences and seminars until I terminated doing so in 1988.
Also in early February, Buell Mullen telephoned one day to say that Dr.
Kinzel would be in town on 17 February. She was having a dinner party and
he wanted to know if I could attend. I said, "Yes, of course."
Then a few days later, she called again and said that Dr. Kinzel would
have a few "friends" who wanted to talk with me. The friends
wouldn't stay for dinner. Could I be at her place at 4:30 sharp.
Now occurred one of the strangest, or at least most mysterious encounters
in my life.
When I had made my way up to Buell's studio and residence on Central Park
South, she answered the door and asked me to wait in her small entry hall.
Then Kinzel came from the studio.
He would introduce his "friends" only by their first names.
I wasn't to ask any questions about who they were. I was to speak as openly
as I wanted about all other matters.
This meeting was "strictly confidential." No one was to know
of it, and Buell had gone up to her bedroom where she couldn't hear what
was being said.
My mouth was open. The only thing Kinzel would say was that it might concern
big-time funding for a new research organization -- of which his "friends"
were in a position to set up.
For the first time in my life I felt completely and suddenly paranoid.
I asked if this had to do with the donor pledges which were being accumulated.
No, this was something entirely different.
There were four "friends," and we sat around Buell's large dinner
table which hadn't yet been laid out with dishes and crystal.
Three were "tycoons" of some kind, if judged by their obviously
expensive, but refined clothes. One wore a suit which was obviously store-bought.
The "meeting," if that was what it was, went well. The principal
questions seemed to be directed to my new ideas I might have about utilizing
psi faculties for practical purposes.
I had a lot to say about new ideas, about the deficits of conventional
parapsychology approaches, about science's rejection of psi potentials.
I was open, and my big mouth finally had its place. I had the idea I was
talking to corporate leaders perhaps interested in setting up a "secret"
project along these lines.
The questions and conversations lasted one hour precisely. Then Kinzel
and his "friends" went into Buell's entrance alcove and stood
talking.
I could smell Buell's leg of lamb perhaps getting overdone, and so I quietly
went into her small kitchen to tend to it. The kitchen was just off of
the entry alcove.
This I overheard:
"He probably won't go for plan A. He's not committed enough. I recommend switching to plan B."
"He's stalwart enough to resent being caught in a pincer. He might walk once he learns the facts."
Then the group went into the hall to wait for the elevator and closed the
door.
I never heard one more word about any of this. I was tremendously mystified.
Some years later I made one of my few visits to the Defense Intelligence
Agency, then still located in Laurel, Maryland -- just outside of Washington
proper. I waited in the crowded lobby for my escort.
When we got to the elevator doors, one opened up -- and out walked the
man in the store-bought suit. There was no mistaking him for one of the
conferees at Buell's place.
"Does that man work here?" I quietly asked my escort.
"Him? Oh no. He works at a company over in Virginia."
Well! That meant only one thing. He was, and had been,
CIA.
Back in March 1972, the experiments were going very well. The formal series
of OOB experiments had been concluded.
We next had to wait for the independent judge to compare my impressions
and sketches with photos of the targets -- and hopefully match them correctly
together.
Meanwhile, I had become very impressed with one aspect of the experiments
I had not noticed at first, but which had increasingly become apparent.
This aspect will be dealt with in detail ahead -- because it became central
to controlled remote viewing. I'll only briefly summarize it here.
There is a myth or legend in psychical research and parapsychology that
psi subjects need time to gather their wits and for their impressions to
start coming in.
This does seem to be a notable characteristic of mediumship where a lot
of delay waiting for the action seems to take place.
But I was finding this anticipated slowness not true at all regarding the
experiments at the ASPR. I found, or eventually noticed at any rate, that
the moment I set my attention onto the target -- well, there it was. Bang
and pop.
Instantaneously.
I first noticed this on the informal, long-distance remote viewing experiments.
When Janet said she was ready to record the brainwaves, my attention went
to the target -- and there it was. No delays.
I then noticed this had also been true in the case of the OOB experiments
as well, and with all of the other kinds of experiments, too. When I laid
back waiting for impressions of the targets -- well, they had already come
and GONE if I wasn't right on the instantaneous dot.
FAST -- we are talking of FAST here. Immediate, instantaneous.
Because of this phenomenon, I got interested in, as I first termed it,
the "speed or velocity of psi signals," or "instantaneous
connection to the psi signals."
No one knew what I was talking about.
At some point in the latter two weeks of March, I was again visiting Cleve
Backster's lab near Times Square. I happened to mention this phenomenon
to Cleve and we went out for junk food to talk about it.
Returning to the lab, Cleve pulled out some papers from one of his file
cabinets and handed them to me.
"Hal Puthoff," he said, "is a physicist out in California.
He is very interested in tachyons, particles which go faster than the speed
of light. You should be in touch with him about this."
I was scanning the papers when Cleve said: "He has a very prestigious
reputation. You two might get along. He's into Scientology, too."
I looked up at Cleve incredulously. Then I simply threw the papers into
the air over my head. They fluttered to the floor.
Cleve looked at me as if I'd lost it.
"Jesus, Cleve. You know what I went through on this thing. I can't
possibly be in touch with ANOTHER Scientologist. The whole world will be
sure there is a plot here. This is out of the question."
Cleve just laughed and gathered up the fluttered papers. He made me copies
and said that I should take them home and read them.
I was determined NEVER to read them. But curiosity got the better of me.
I found the papers to be stimulating and exciting, somewhat begrudgingly
so.
In the end, I wrote Dr. H. E. Puthoff a letter dated 30 March 1972.
And with that letter, the sucking-into circumstances of my life changed
forevermore -- although I hadn't the least idea that they would.
All I wanted to achieve was a discussion about the velocity of psi signals.
Instead, I got the involvements for the next seventeen years of my life.